first person to offer to buy me a drink since i turned 21 in 2012 was just now and it was a 30-40 year old Jewish gay man who told me i’m adorable. i’m so young here. i’m so cute here
i am having a ROUGH NIGHT with these feelings. they are more intolerable than normal and i feel very far away from what once was the center of my contentment
i’m afraid of heaven because i can’t stand the height, i’m afraid of you because i can’t be left behind
also if any of you southern california people are interested in buying disneyland tickets, i can get you two 1-Day park hopper tickets for $100 each. they’re sold full price for $137 at the park. i’m not saying that i have tickets that i’m selling but i’m not not saying it but i’m also not not not but
for some reason testosterone has made me more comfortable dancing to music even though i can’t dance. it’s just helped me stop caring, which is an interesting change due to a hormone.
"i looked at you and saw you were enough" just shuts me right down
i just licked koolaid powder from 4 hours ago off my arm
i’ve been trying to figure out while i feel more emotional about my current situations than usual and then i remembered that i was supposed to do my shot two days ago but i forgot. body need testosterone. body cry
this haunts me yes
I don’t feel less emotional at all in my every day life. I am going through a break up that happened a little over a month after I started testosterone, and I think it’s changed the things that I feel comfortable posting? idk All of the things that I’m sentimental about right now have to do with my relationship and I’m just not comfortable posting everything I feel because this is a very very touchy subject for me???