i think that i’m sleep walking, or else i’ve had three very vivid dreams of me standing in various places in my house in the dark. i’m also having terrifying nightmares that seem so real that i’m not sure if they aren’t? which sounds insane to begin with. there was a night last week where i had a nightmare, and woke myself up from it. except i hadn’t actually...
having a sun burn sucks. i’m not red or even pink, but i feel like i’m on fire directly under the skin on my face. my face feels like it’s on fire and i’m really thirsty.
turns out that waking up at 9am on saturay to work during the day, do rocky horror at night, stay awake all night, walk in the pride parade in the morning and not get home til 2pm sunday is very tiring. 30ish hours of no sleep is awful but bearable when you’re doing cool stuff. i took a nap for a couple hours. jenisa landed in LA this morning and i’m gonna see her TONIGHT :)
i walked into work holding an apple, and my coworker immediately said, “what are you doin with an apple, dawg? i brought CHIPS”
i don’t know if i’ve chronicled my dessert dreams on my blog before. my reoccurring dream that i have where i’m pressed for time, and trying to choose what tiny desserts i want to buy before i have to leave the store. i had another one last night. this time, i was at an urban outfitters that also had a grocery section. it was about to close. i was walking up and down the freezer...
i gave up trying to sew this piece of fabric onto my shirt for the parade, so i just safety pinned it. more punx? not sure. don’t care. too lazy. i spent like six hours of my shift today holding in the worst poop ever. i need rest. i need mad men. i need my girlfriend to come home in three days.
middle school girls come walking into haagen dazs smelling like hella body spray
suk a dog dik
i had a dream that i met sufjan last night. there was a long line to take a picture with him, and he looked kind of like he was falling asleep while taking pictures with people and i was worried that he was high out of his mind. finally it got to be my turn, and we both sat in lawn chairs. i held my shoe up next to his shoe and was like, “we wear the same size shoe” and he laughed. i...
i have to wear a shirt that says long beach rocky horror on it for the pride parade this sunday, so i decided to make my own because i don’t really like the one we have. i painted all of “long beach rocky horror” in big block letters than took me an hour overall and then i realized i spelt horror “horrer” fuck all accidental mispellings
the number 9 looks like a capital R in my head, and the number 7 looks like a capital S. meaning also that a capital R looks like a 9 in my head, and a capital S looks like 7. sometimes when I’ll try to write something that starts with a capital R, like Rational, I’ll write 9ational if that makes sense. same with the 7/S mix up. i don’t know why but they both confuse me for a...
jenisa comes home this weekend :) i’m excited beyond words. i made a list on my phone of possible things to do/go to this summer. half of them are food. salvation mountain big bear disneyland/carthay circle restuarant camping san diego/coronado rocky horror chinese food and a movie san francisco? tattoo urth caffe macaroons milk pie n burger heritage family pantry cambria i...
sold 7k worth of ice cream during a very busy night tonight and only got a 5 dollar tip lol. thank you to all guests. happy mothers day. eat a dick
i put something in my cart on uo and then decided i’d just add whatever else to get to $50 so that i’d get free shipping. i didn’t know what to buy and of course went through all of my possible options which inevitably led me to “maybe underwear for jenisa idk” but i got overwhelmed just looking at the underwear so i don’t think i can go there. i have gone...
i took the night off from rocky horror tonight, and just by chance, two of my closest friends were also free tonight. the first time none of us had to work on a saturday night for what seems like months. i haven’t not worked on a single saturday night since december, other than one saturday when i was in new york. so we got mexican food and saw a movie. it was so fucking nice. just...
how many years will it take me to remember that typing “taylor” into my search bar won’t take me to her blog. 4 years so far
cisgender: “real women” “women should” “if you’re a girl, you” “what about men” “poop is food”
I asked all of the gay male students in the room to raise their hand if in the...– Gay Men’s Sexism and Women’s Bodies by Yolo Akili (via plightofthepretty)
i got a new binder and it is amazing. i feel like a whole new guy. i felt so much better about myself all day. how nice
“i’m just so fascinated with serial killers” “poop is food”
how about you just respect people. next time you go to any food establishment and are ordering and receiving food, just be fucking nice for christ sake. i can’t tell you how many people come to order from me and act as if i’m forcing them to buy ice cream. just nicely ask for what you want, pay, and be on your way. that’s all. god why are people so awful to each other all the...
Anonymous asked: is jenisa taller than you?
i just can’t believe i’m going to be starting testosterone in less than four months. oh my god. so unreal. me, starting testosterone, being on t like some of my other cool dude friends. i’m so excited. august is going to be a crazy fun month. one half of me is going to want the summer to go by slowly, so that i can enjoy my time with jenisa before she goes back to school. the...
uh so not only did my friend help me get two presale tickets to see the national and daughter at hollywood forever cemetary on august 11th, but the LGBT center called because i’m on the waitlist and now i have an APPOINTMENT FOR AUGUST 22ND WITH DR. MADDIE! exactly a week after my birthday omfg i cried to the person who called to set up the appointment
MY LIFE JUST CHANGED
oh right, my review of last night’s born ruffians show. LA shows can be a hit or miss for me. there’s an attitude with some people who come out to LA shows that really just rubs me the wrong way. it’s an attitude like, “i don’t care if you’re standing here, me and my friends are a bigger group and we’re just going to do whatever we want and push our way to...
i’m going to try to get tickets for jenisa and i to see the national and daughter in august. and i’m seeing born ruffians at the troubadour tonight! by myself, but still fun. thursday night i’ll be seeing the great gatsby too. THE NATIONAL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
if i act ashamed, it’ll come off as if being this is shameful. if i’m hesitant, so will others be with me. it’s difficult. i want to be courageous. i want to be unashamedly who i am at all times, even if i don’t meet society’s expectations of what makes someone male. i don’t know how to just be. i want to just be. i want to just exist and not worry if someone is...
one of my coworkers was wide-eyed, speaking in a hushed tone to another coworker, so i walked up to them and was like, “what’s up?” and she said, “i just saw two guys kiss. for the first time.” so i immediately said, “for the first time? ..how old are you?” and she’s 23! and this is the first time she’s ever seen two men kiss! how can you be 23...
Anonymous asked: my girlfriend is trans and looking for a job, did you ever have any trouble with it or do you live in a super trans-friendly place?